I turn another year older on Sunday.
Boo.
Ok.
I'll be 26. I'm calling this year the "Back To Basics" year. I want to
just start over and use this time of my life as a jump off point to a
new life. A new beginning. It's time to stray away from those old times
of nonchalant-ness and start taking myself a little more seriously. I
always wasn't as confident with myself and my potential, but lately with
me being a little more productive and helpful at my job, I've gained
that self-assuring attitude. I CAN actually do things, and do them very
well. I may not have the marks to prove it necessarily, but I definitely
have the ability.
Granted, maybe I'm a little late to the party. But better late than never, right?
I've
learned a lot about myself and what and who I allow to have certain
influence on me. Some of y'all got away with fucking murder. But, it was
my fault, and I can only blame myself for giving you far too much
credit. For putting you in such a special place, one you never deserved
in the first place. Don't worry, it won't happen again. =)
I'm
not the person I was before, so I'd understand if some won't like the
changes. I'd hope that anyone, if they ever truly cared about me, would
understand and join and help me on this journey I'm electing to take,
because I think it's going to be a great thing. But if you don't want to
embrace the new me, you can go suck wind for all I care. Because I like
where I'm going. Even if it means I have to revisit some things from
the (way far back) past. I know it will lead me to a bigger and brighter
future.
To borrow from Gnarls Barkley's "Going On":
"And I’ll see you when you get there
But I’m going on
And I’m prepared to go it alone
I’m going on
May my love lift you up to the place you belong
I’m going on
And I promise I’ll be waiting for you"
CuCu
