::sets down coffee cup filled with Jackie D::
I know. It's been a while.
Work. What can I say? I'm a grown up.
It's been hard to balance work and my loved ones lately. I feel like I work too damn much, and I haven't been around. I have no life, no fun, just alcohol and Netflix.
While it's a great escape from work, it's not good with my personal connections. I miss my best friend. I miss my nephew. I miss my night life.
To that last point, I only miss it somewhat. Not a lot, just the atmosphere and drinks and music, and the excitement of going out in your best 'fit and heels. I wouldn't do it all the time, just enough to satisfy the "gana".
I know I gotta make moves to change it. But with my job being like it is, it's going to take much more effort than originally anticipated. But I have to make it happen to be able to do so many more things that I want to.
Change is Coming.
::sips Jackie D::
I'm sitting here listening to my Isley Brothers Pandora station. Man I love music.It's literally everything. I can always find a song that reminds me of a moment, a memory, a love, a friend, a sad situation.
I'm glad that my family raised me to love all different types of music.I love that my iTunes has been described as "weird".
Random. I know. ::shrugs::
::sips more Jackie D::
I'm not a good flirter. I've discovered this recently. Chalk it up to my Sagittarian ways and me not seeing the obvious. Half of the time, I don't even notice when someone likes me. Or if i do know, I think its a glitch in the system. Like, no, you can't like me. you must mean that girl who's much prettier, much more dynamic, much cooler than me.
That's not to say I don't think highly of myself. I think I'm a catch. I just am really surprised when someone sees that. It's a habit of mine I have to ::sips Jackie D:: stop. It's ok for others to notice. I guess I'm not used to it. Especially lately.
Dah well.
Lemme say this.
::sips Jackie D::
You can't expect to receive something you're not ready for. Stop complaining about what you don't have when you're not even appreciative of what you DO have. You want more friends, but you treat the ones that you do have like shit. You want more opportunities, but you're not taking advantage for the ones you already have.
How TF does that even make sense? Do Better.
::sips last of Jackie D in coffee mug::
I hate being a friend to crappy people.
Let me rephrase.
I hate being a good friend to people who aren't willing to reciprocate.
My parents raised me with a Christian heart, to forgive 70 times 7.
I cuss. I'm vulgar. I drink (clearly). I have tattoos. Do lots of things the Bible warns against.
But for some reason, I let people do whatever they want. That's gotta change soon.
Also, I gotta learn how to flirt better. Cuz a bitch is STRUGGLIN' out here. LoL.
I've never been the best, but I used to know a little sumn-sumn.
Maybe I'm just outta practice.
Ok, I'ma go before I spill too much.
::searches bottom of cup for any traces of Jackie D. Nowhere to be found::
Yeah it's time to go. LoL
Night fuckers.
CuCu
